the sadness will never end

 i remember you like yesterday. still can't believe you're gone and until i'm with you, i carry on..

 adrift on your ocean floor.. i feel weightless numb and sore. a part of you and me is torn

i woke from a dream last night. i dreamt that you were by my side reminding me i still had life

in me..

you're free..

 i'm alone for our last goodbye.. no more walking together

every single color in my world change into black and white. no more rainbow

you're free..

woman always hide her sadness

woman cried not because of weak but because she could not pretend to be strong

"When will I see you again
You left with no goodbye
Not a single a word was said
No final kiss to seal anything"

" I kept my distance so you would be free,
And hope that you find the missing piece,
To bring you back to me"

#Adele - Don't you remember

goodbye..

with love

xoxo

muslimah in fashion

Last sweet afternoon, i went to Kota Lama with Hijabers Semarang Community friends. They were so beautiful in twilight shine. don't you believe it? let's check this out..

 Erryka in her smooth highwaist pant and cute Gosh shoes aaaa.. 

just add noises in this pict. looks.. little bit old

 Sabella Amalia in her animal print. Nice outfit. love this pict.

 Ika Pratama in her floral vintage. feel like Summer

 Oktiyani Puspita Sari in her bold red. so brave! cute bag :3

Yoan Nabilah in her favorite outfit ummm maybe because i often see her wears this one. lol..

very love this pict. 2 thumbs up for myself :p

with love

xoxo

the sweetest 17 in my life

thanks to all my friends who always makes my life so wonderful. have all of you guys is a beautiful gift.. love you

 17th, 18th, 19th birthday cake.. lol! but i like it

 first cake

 i'm so happy

 love you guys!!! ({})

 and Good Morning Everyone and Cherry Crunch Pajamas band with their nice songs. thanks for singing

with love

xoxo

i'm holding your love

bubble-ing

you and me

chere ma prince ♥

si la poussiere emporte tes reves de lumiere

je serai ta lune,

et si la soleil nous brule

je prierai qui tu voudras pour que tombe la neigi au sahara

jika harapanmu hancur berkeping-keping, aku akan menjadi bulan yang menerangi jalanmu.

matahari akan menyinari matamu, dan aku akan berdoa kepada langit agar salju berderai di Sahara.

with love ♥ 

my place's still here

you can. I will be

you're happy. I'm happy too

you're with your way. I'm with my way

you're with your life. I'm with my own

you need me? I'm still here for you

with love ♥ 

Twilight in grasses ♥

 

with my friend @bungagladys and thanks to @shofmil also her boyfie @mcdiks 

i'm single. i'm free. i'm happy :)

bye my love ♥

old is new

Generally speaking, clothing which was produced before the 1920s is referred to as antique clothing and clothing from the 1920's to 1980's is considered vintage. Retro, short for retrospective, or "vintage style" usually refers to clothing that imitates the style of a previous era.

i say DENIM !

DENIM IS COOL

SORRY BABY, I'M SOLD OUT !

denim 'turtle' mini dress. black t-shirt. black sunglasses

SIMPLE is beautiful !

capture it

Fashion in the period 1795–1820 in European. 

Women's fashions followed classical ideals, and tightly laced corsets were temporarily abandoned in favor of a high-waisted, natural figure.

CATCH MY PICTURE

Black t-shirt. tartan skirt. rattan bag. Sipirilli brown wedges

holly-day

second holiday, i'm getting bored. it's holiday baby but i don't know what to do. so, pick the camera !

THE NETHERLANDS

KuyaGaya dutch mini dress. blue crocs shoes. rattan bag. red ribbon

draw your music !!

get your earphone, open the playlist, click and PLAY YOUR MUSIC !!!!

move on

forgive yourself for your faults and your mistakes and move on

I HAVE TO MOVE ON !

nightmare

I had a dream and it was about you. I smiled and recalled the memories we had, then I noticed a tear fell from my eyes ... you know why? cause in my dream you kissed me and said goodbye ...

i say ...

The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else.

Pleasure of love lasts a moment, pain of love lasts a lifetime.

If a relationship is to evolve, it must go through a series of endings.

Time will make you forget me but time will make me love you more than before.

The hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let go and knowing when to say goodbye.

Forget the times & don't pretend, remember now he's just your friend.

I hate to see the one I love happy with somebody but I surely hate it more to see the one I love unhappy with me.

it's not just a painting

October 17th 2010 :) 

 wish I could go back to the very first day I saw you
Should’ve made my move when you looked in my eyes :)

the way i call your name

"there are a lot of people who call you by your name

but there is only one person who can make it sound so damn special,

it's me! "

with love ♥

love quotes ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

• “To be your friend was all I ever wanted, to be your lover was all I ever dreamed.”

• “Sometimes I wish I were a little kid again, skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts.”

• "Don’t say you love me unless you really mean it, because I might do something crazy like believe it."

• "The worst thing is holding on to someone who doesn’t want to be held on to."

• “I ♥ him and that’s the beginning of everything.”

• “Like music on the waters is your sweet voice to me.”

• “Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it is better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.”

• “When I see you smile and know that it is not for me, that is when I will miss you the most.”

• “Pains of love be sweeter far than any other pleasures are.”

different language, one meaning

我爱你 , 私はあなたを愛して , 당신을 사랑합니다, Je t'aime , Ich liebe dich , Te amo , Te quiero , I love you , AKU SAYANG KAMU ♥

I MISS YOU :')

I loved the way you felt so strong. I never wanted you to leave. I wanted you to stay here holding me

I miss your smile and I still shed a tear. Every once in a while and even though it's different now. You're still here somehow. My heart won't let you go and I need you to know. I miss you

I know you're in a better place but I wish that I could see your face. I know you're where you need to be even though it's not here with me :(

i miss you so much, the old you :(

unbelievable :O

'A' tanya sama aku 'D':


A: "kenapa kamu bisa segitu sayangnya sama dia sih?"
D: "aduuuh, itu pertanyaan paling gk bisa aku jawab. yg namanya sayang itu kan gk butuh alasan"
A: "iya aku tau, tp knpa sih segitu takutnya? sejak kapan kmu sayang sama dia?"
D: "wajar kan ya aku takut kehilangan? hmmm aku gktau awalnya gmna tpi aku bru sadar bbrpa lama sebelum aku pacaran sm dia"
A: "mau tau kenapa kamu bisa sgitu sayangnya? pdhal bru nyadar kan?"
D: "apa?"
A: "menurutku, sebenernya kamu itu uda ngerasa cocok sama dia, anggap aja suka sejak setahun yg lalu, sejak kalian wktu kls 10, aku bisa tau kok mski km gk crita, tapi kamu nggak tahu sama perasaanmu itu atau mungkin kamu nggak mau tahu. jadi kamu kubur dia dalam-dalam, makanya kmu ngrasa kan kayak uda lama punya rasa? nyadar nggak?"
D: "maksudmu aku uda suka dia dari dulu?"
A: "iya! tapi kamu nggk mau jujur sama prsaanmu, aku tau sih wktu itu kmu uda pnya pacar, tapi perasaan suka tu gak bisa ditutupin, aku bisa liat dari deketnya kalian kyk gimana, dari cara kamu liat dia, smpe aku kira kalian uda pacaran dri dulu"
D: "masa sih? aaaaaaah... aku nggak ngerti malah, bisa jadi gitu, yg pasti stlh aku bilang 'aku sayang dia' aku bner-bener nggak mau kehilangan"
A: "aku ngerti kok. tapi kamu jgn egois juga ya. seandainya dia uda nggk sayang kamu, kamu nggk mungkin kn bakal mksa dia buat sm kmu trs?"
D: "iya, aku nggak bakal egois. tapi aku akan ngrsa lebih tenang seandainya dia bisa jujur bilang 'aku uda nggak sayang' walaupun nyesek daripada dia harus 'bermain' di blkgku"
A: "emang kamu yakin dia kyk gitu?"
D: "semoga nggak, kan aku bilangnya 'seandainya', trnyta kmu bakat psikolog atau dokter cinta ya? hahaha"
A: "iya uda turun temurun dari nenek moyang, jadi percaya deh sm kta-kataku haha"
D: "hmmmmm -_______-"


setelah percakapan ini aku terus mikir smpai, apa emng bener sbnrnya dari dulu aku uda emmm istilahnya interest gitu deh sama dia, ya gak ya?


p.s: buat yang ngerasa dirinya diomongin, semoga sadar ya :)

jealous? of course yes, baby!!

wajar nggak sih cemburu sama pacar sendiri? wajar kan? manusiawi kan? YA, karena itu yang sering aku rasain.
belajar buat sabar? tegar? emang harus sih tapi buat aku sih lebih baik jujur sama perasaan karena aku nggk mau 'sok tegar', nggak mau dibilang munafik gara-gara nyembunyiin perasaan.


tau kenapa aku cemburu? nyadar nggak kl aku nyesek? "kayaknya nggak deh" gak perlu ditanya juga sbnrnya aku uda tau sih -___-
jujur deh aku tuh orangnya gampang kemakan omongan org lain, alias gampang percaya.
banyak yg bilang kmu lagi deket sma inilah itulah, tapi aku tetep positive thinking, dlm hati aku bilang "pasti gak ada maksud apa-apa, cuma temen". aku tahu kamu orangnya bisa baik sama semua org, termasuk cewek. tapi aku harap kmu gak kelewat batas deh, batasi pergaulanmu juga. kamu bisa segitu care-nya sama cewek lain, sedangkan aku? uda jarang banget kamu perhatiin. "helooooo yang di sini mau dikemanain?"


aku trs coba untuk percaya kamu (meski kamu nggk pernah bantu aku untuk percaya sama kamu) sampai akhirnya belakangan ini rasa kepercayaanku mulai pudar *oh noooooo... aku pikir ini nggak akan bertahan lama, ternyata keterusan sampai sekarang.
entah siapa yg kamu maksud itu, yang pasti bukan aku kan? aku tau itu dari semua status twitter ataupun bbm. hmmm... aku mulai curiga sma 'seseorang'.
dan jawabanmu (atau mungkin alibimu) belum berhasil bikin aku percaya, justru bikin aku makin nggak tenang!


akhirnya aku sekarang jadi suka 'galau', suka nyesek, suka nangis tiba-tiba, suka emosi juga sampai aku mukulin tembok dan hasilnyaaaa taraaaaa...

lihat deh tanganku sampai bengkak kayak gini :O
dan setelah dipikir-pikir, "ngapain ya aku smpai nyakitin tanganku sndri?"


questions for you: apa sih yang bikin kamu jadi berubah kayak gini? apa yg bikin kmu jadi gak care lgi sama aku? apa yang bikin kamu jadi hal yang selalu aku khawatirin?
kamu senang dg posisimu? terus gimana dg posisiku sekarang? kamu nggak akan pernah bisa ngrasain!

thanks and please...

thanks God ! finally i found someone who give me wings to fly away of his brown eyes, like the sand under where i can stay there.
someone who can make me feel too happy in my life just because his smile :)
someone who i love with all my heart and soul.
someone who'll stay around through all my ups and downs.
God, thanks for give me me a reason to believe that he is my destiny (i hope so),
the only one who'll keep in my heart. the most precious gift from You before i was 16th :)


please do not take back the greatest gift you've given me, with all its fears, anxiety,and distrust that haunts my feelings now. please do not take my happiness, God :(

when love makes me...

when it was dark now there's light
where there was pain now there's joy
where there was weakness, you'll find your strength
i'm already inside of you just like you're inside of me (i hope) ♥

when your world is starting to fall, i'll bellow you

when you need wings to fly, i'll above you

when you looking for the light, i'll in front of you

when you need greatest push, i'll behind you

when you realize need someone, i'll beside you

*it's all about YOU --> D.I.A ♥

untitled ?

don't you ever wish
you were someone else
you were meant to be
the way you are exactly
don't you ever say
you don't like the way you are
when you learn to love yourself or someone else
and i hope you always stay the same
cause there's nothing 'bout you i would change :)

the only one ♥

I never know how it started to happen but i know it fell always everytime... i swear I LOVE YOU ♥


you're still the one i run to
the one that i belong to
the one i want for life
the one that i love
the only one i dream of
you're still the one i kiss good night :*